Thank you Sis' x3

my sister's words help me a lot. i don't know what i'd do without her
i felt pretty down, and she was able to build me up again.
here's what she has just told me on the phone:

i know it's hard
just remember, that it doesn't matter how much you think to know a person,
they are not like that, or at least most of them.
right know you think like "WTF why do i have to go through this, it's not fair"
but this experience will help you in "the real world"
you are used to be liked by everyone, everyone loved you
but now you learn what rejection means
it's hard to deal with it, but this is how to grow up
be happy, that you have friends who like you,
even though you don't see them very often
don't do so much drama
keep your eyes on the people around you
don't trust them
but, always be nice, don't cause a scene
but don't act less smart as you are
be confident
you know who you are
you know your aims
keep you head held high
and do your own thing
god will help you
he will reward you
Life will go the right way
and then you'll be happy
just remember, that you are a likeable beautiful
human being
everything will be great in the end
just keep your strength and be proud of who you are
don't be ashamed of yourself, there's no reason why you
should hide yourself
you have a family and people who stand behind you
you just have to look around
and keep your faith


thank you so much gloria, i love you x3

That´s just the way it is

there are stupid people in the world,
but don´t be afraid of them. you are a beautiful and strong human being
you are better than them, so don´t start to fight
not to take revenge can be a revenge too
so keep on doing your own thing, LIFE WILL GO THE RIGHT DAY,
and then YOU'LL BE HAPPY =)

my face is made of glass
and i wish someone would cut itself at it
x3

don't ever be afraid to step out and do something totally different
x3

things i´ll never say

- i may be a drama queen, but this is who i am, and what you did, is worth acting out!!
i am so angry!! i´ve never been so angry at a friend of mine, i swear to you, you will get
disappointed!! the thing you guys have is nothing

Sometimes life sucks

and this time is right now
it´s so hard not to give up, but you really try your best
you look at the bright side of life, you pray to god, you keep your faith
and even though you feel so lost, you don´t lose your faith,
you think you found a way how to deal with it
but then something happens, you would have never expected,
it´s like life punched you right in to your face, and then you fall

how can someone keep faith, if there is hardly any positve thing in your life?
and it keeps getting worse and worse

i wish i could just hide myself
everything is crashing down

3 kind of people

- there are people who don´t care at all if you are okay or not, but that´s fine

- then there are some people who really care about you, because they like you =]

- and there are people who are so jealous of you, so that they wanna bring you down
i just feel sorry for them, they don´t have a life, so they got to sabotage others,
but there´s no reason to care about those people, because they are just pitful

crying

i wanna feel absoluetly happy x3
i cry if you let me

we come we go
we live until we live no more

(kings of leon - frontier city)

can you take me back to the person i used to be?
back when you were there for me?
i know it seems like forever but do me this favor please

way back when we were stupid
and held grudges just to help us sleep
oh my god how ridiciulous were we

miss you

missing r . . . . .

if i find my way, through the darkest of days, will i laugh about the things that kept me awake?
but if my greatest fear paints itself so crystal clear, will i run away, or will i hide?

good and bad days

yes, my moods changes every minute
i have some good and bad days, today was a good one =D
i spent my time with my friends the whole day long, and i´m so thankful for that,



everything will be great in the end,
if it isn´t great, then it´s not the end

***
i was staring at the sky
just looking for a star
to pray on or wish on or something like that

***

just remember that you rock my world x3

I feel good

i feel good right now
but i´m too tired too go into details
i just had an amazing day
it wasn´t perfect, but great
good and bad days come and go, i just have to try, keeping on smilin' =]

i absoluetly adore this song x3

***♦#*''*#♦***
a summer sun that blows my mind
is falling down on all that i've ever known
time will kiss the world goodbye
we're falling down on all that i've ever known
is all that i've ever known
a dying scream makes no sound
calling out to all that i've ever known
here am i lost and found, calling out to all

***♦#*''*#♦***

we live a dying dream
if you know what i mean
and all that i've ever known
it's all that i've ever known

***♦#*''*#♦***

catch the wheel that breaks the butterfly
i cry the rain that fills the ocean wide
i tried to talk with god to no avail
i call him up in and out of nowhere
said if you won't save me please don't waste my time
***
all that i've ever known is all that i've ever known
***
catch the wheel that breaks the butterfly
i cry the rain that fills the ocean wide
i tried to talk with god to no avail
i call him up in and out of nowhere
said if you won't save me please don't waste my time

***♦#*''*#♦***

a summer sun it blows my mind
it's fallin' down on all that i've ever known
time to kiss the world goodbye
falling down on all that i've ever known
is all that i've ever known

***♦#*''*#♦***

(oasis-falling down)

Tonight

tonight i wanna do something i haven´t done for ages
and i am going to make it happen
i wanna right a song again, accompanied by my piano
it´s just that it would disturb my family, because it is right in the living room
and there´s no place for it in my room
but i am going to make it =)
i feel insecure, but very inspired

today was better,
and i am very thankfull, that the sun is shining right now
it puts a little smile on my face,
i just hope, that i won´t get depressed again

tomorrow i´m meeting my best friends, and i can´t wait for that

life is so unpredictable sometimes . . .

another book i really enjoyed reading


"success is like a bright star that you hold out both hands for,
i do want to succeed. I want to shine"

"The bus driver opended the doors and made me throw the snowball out. I told him I wasn´t going to chuck it at anybody but he wouldn´t believe me. People never believe you"


i read this book a few days ago and i just love it x3
it made me think about some things

yes i do feel very tired
and i´m angry
but most of all i am pretty scared
i just realised, that i used to stick to people
and that i am scared of being alone
but being alone doesn´t have to be something worse
i have to realise, that i can be strong
that i can be happy alone or with others
i have to change
life will go the right way

If at first you fail and begin to doubt your work, just remember – not everything starts out perfect. Even diamonds started out as coal.

Back to school

school has just started and i think i kind of hate it.
i changed school because of personal reasons, which doesn´t mean, that i didn´t make any friends at my old school. i got the most perfect and best friends at my old school, but i just had to leave. because of personal reasons.
the new people are not like me. they are arrogant and selfish, but maybe i just don´t really know them. as a matter of fact, i don´t know them at all, i hope i get to know them a little bit better. two of them are very nice though, but i think i become an outsider.
i hope i won´t but i guess so.
and that´s when i realised, that i was very lucky having these two friends of mine, i love them so much, and they love me, they miss me a lot and promised, that we are going to stay in touch. of course we will, i will take care of that ;]

anyways, i don´t wanna talk or even think about it.
i realise that i have to be strong. i don´t need to have very close friends in school. i gotta keep my head held high. everything is going to be okay. yeah, i have faith in that =)